It’s a happy/sad kind-of day. Happy for my Fitbit buddy (AKA sister) for her weight loss this week, and sad that I’ve gained 2 lbs. Oh, I know, I travelled a bunch in the past two weeks, and my self-control was at some kind of all-time low. But this is my first time to go back up, and I’m just not happy about that.
In addition, I haven’t been able to go to the pool, and the pool always makes me feel like I’m doing something. As I’ve said any number of times, weight loss is hard. Sometimes you want to skip a workout or eat a whole entire pizza. And when you have an upward swing, however small, in the weight numbers, you want those things even worse. It’s the entire reason people give up on diets.
Finding motivation on bad days is really the same as good days – thinking of all the reasons why I wanted to lose weight in the first place. Today, I jotted down my list of reasons again. Just the physical act of writing things is cathartic for me. I feel like I’ve veered off track a bit, so just thinking of how absolutely healthier, smaller, fit, and awesome I’ll be once I reach my ultimate goal weight, actually helps.
My personal motivations are all about what’s inside. Getting healthier is the most important … feeling better, less pain, more mobile. That’s what I’m hoping for. I’m the only person I have to prove something to in the long run. Although making this public (hence you, my friendly readers) keeps me honest. Also, awarding myself for reaching mini-goals is another great way of motivation. Not with food, which would have been my old reward, but just little things, usually a bit of shopping.
I’ve also been failing at meeting my step goal. When I don’t “go” anywhere on any given day, I can’t get all my steps in. One of my fit friends simply walks the length of her house every hour until she gets the 250 steps in. I can’t seem to do that. Have to figure this out.
Anyway, I keep repeating that I’m going to get back on track, and I don’t seem to be doing it. Since today is Sunday, and it’s the start of the week … there’s no better day to begin again. So, that’s what I’m doing … beginning again.